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Eat.
Blackened chicken breast with roasted garlic and radish, accompanied by artichoke hearts on a bed of garbanzo beans- finished with fresh lemon, salt, olive oil, and freshly cracked pepper.
This Side of Heaven
Evening stroll; Taken tonight. 8.3.23.
iPhone SE.
The End of the Road
After much time and consideration, I’ve decided that I must not be involved in any romantic relationship for my first entire year of recovery, as it’s just too triggering.
There’s a good reason my sponsor & recovery cohorts often espouse that getting into either a.) a new- or b.) an old (but complicated) relationship during your first year of recovery is likened to two tornadoes heading toward one another. It’s only a matter of time before they collide (potentially)- utterly destroying you and you’re back to where you started- a complete wreck.
Out of respect for my former life partner, I’ll refrain from using his name or images going forward so I can finally focus on ME.
Love to all. ♥️
Pure Beauty
My beautiful Mother, sharing a laugh with me before we head off to Church.
Early Sunday Morning. 7.30.23.
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
Yod Hay Vah Hay
Somebody got her first tattoo. 😎 Even my Mother loves it!
In ancient Hebrew, the words Yod Hay Vah Hay represent the Lord’s Secret Name; from the Old Testament. It represents four different classes of love, and is as follows:
Yod = Forgiving Love
Hay = Forgetting Love
Vah = Blameless Love
Hay = Sharing Love
I was absolutely ecstatic to get this very sacred tattoo on my right wrist; and when I saw it, I loved it.
Exceeeeept I noticed that he’d accidentally tattooed the first HAY backwards. I was crushed. I asked God why He’d allowed me to get His Secret Name tattooed on my wrist if it was just going to be messed up?!
He answered: “You’ve forgiven the ones who’ve hurt you the most, but have you FORGOTTEN their crimes against you?”
And then I legit almost fell onto the floor. It was then that I realized true forgiveness = forgetting! To never recall the awful things that others have done to me.
And then I was actually glad that the first HAY (Forgetting Love) was backwards, as I indeed had been backwards in my own forgiveness of others.
Cool story, no? God is so cool in the way He works! He works through situations & people.
Without further adieu, I give you my new tat: Yod Hay Vah Hay- chained about my wrist. (And I got my nose pierced too. 😎)
My Mother’s Hands
Destiny
“Acknowledge Him in all thy ways & He shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:6
A LEWK
Off to another meeting. Piggy tails and all…
July 4th
Taken tonight.
Single…..
…with no desire to mingle. Not. A. Drop.
Freedom is the BEST feeling in the world.
😎
ORIGINAL SONG: THE FLOOD
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Click the link above to hear an original song I wrote called “The Flood”. A song about Addiction & pain; recovery and redemption. ♥️
This is an original song I wrote called “The Flood”, and it’s a song about struggling with addiction, but it’s dedicated to an unnamed gay friend of mine at Redbubble; He’s a phenomenal artist who shared a photo of himself holding a Bible in front of a Church in full drag, in the rain- mascara running down his face- lipstick all smudged; I found him incredibly beautiful. What a powerful image! I dedicate this song especially to him. Love you guys. ♥️
Lyrics:
“The Flood”
Standing, in the water
And your knees are, covered by the flood
Covered by the flood
Dancing, pitter patter, noise & noise & words
Falling down in idle chatter
Open up your mouth
And drink in the rain
Drink in the rain
And doesn’t it break your heart?
Doesn’t it make you cry?
Doesn’t it make you glad?
Turn the tears to wine
It doesn’t make you bad
For drinking in the rain
Don’t know what to do
With so much pain
I ate the guts out of a dirty potato
And now I’m feeling better, better, better, ooh
Church & a Funeral
God has been working in BIG ways in my life. I saw this beautiful chandelier at the funeral (church)- 2 churches in one day- that’s a record for me, to put it mildly. I couldn’t stop staring at it!
Coffee
…one of the most important things at an evening AA meeting. Although I never identified as a full-blown alcoholic, my life has been profoundly impacted by alcoholic loved ones, and I almost got taken by it in my younger years. I go today for preventative measures, and I’ve found my TRIBE. I absolutely love my people. ♥️
Falls of the Ohio State Park
Canon Rebel t3i. Sigma 10-20 MM.
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