Good golly what have I gone and gotten myself into?
It’s 2:24 a.m. and typical as ever, the house is alive and buzzing as if it were 3 p.m. Brian and Brianna (sorry Brian…) -Brianna and “Bob” are in their room doing God knows what- I hear occasional screams, back and forth- I have no idea what they’re going on about in there…
“Lotus Flower” (Radiohead) plays on my speakers and Brian…I mean, Bob is dancing around the kitchen-head poking in and out of the fridge. It’s possibly the coolest chill song ever. You really should give it a listen- it always puts me in a super good mood, no matter what:
I’m quite sure he’s higher than a kite- Mr. Yorke.
You know I love you, Tom. My kids think you’re the greatest thing since sliced bread.
(I do too.)
Bob puts his hand on his head, shakes his hips and tries to moonwalk.
“Dude, you did not just do that…” I say to him.
He smiles at me deviously, revealing more of his gnarley socks.
Tomorrow is a full day and I have no idea what I’m doing up at 2:30 a.m. I’m supposed to wake up at 7:00 a.m. and hit the prayer closet, then read a few chapters from the KJV. I have sadly slackened off lately.
Consider this. We take care of our bodies- we bathe, we try to eat good so we can live longer. But why do we want to live longer? Especially those that hate to live. I’m not one of them- I love life- and think there’s something to be gained from pain.
But we do what the television tells us to do. It says work out- we work out. It says “be pretty- feel sexy”- we are pretty and sexy. And so on.
But what do we do for our spirits? Our souls? I scratch my head and search for an answer. It’s been too long. I’m not uneducated in spiritual matters. I’ve just gotten lazy. So, I’ve decided that tomorrow I will wake up exceptionally early and pray. This clashes with my honey brandy tonight though, and I’m feeling particularly stressed out, so I’m having a few shots.
I just know this. Whenever I rise up early in the morning and pray, I feel directed. I feel stronger and my day has purpose. I need to get that back.
“Reckoner” rolls out of the speakers now…
“You are not to blame for bittersweet distractions…dedicated to all human beings…”
We can’t sleep.
J and I decided to get all gussied up tonight. We used Oil of Olay’s Regenerist microderm abrasion-in-a-bottle facial scrub- it’s $28 bucks per bottle but man is it good stuff. It’s like a fine sand grain that heats up with added water; makes your face nice and warm.
Afterwards, we applied our facials; imported English clay for J- Mint Julip Eucolyptus clay for myself. We bleached our teeth using a home-bleaching kit while our clay faces dried.
We tried to sleep but were both restless. I think we’re both excited that we’ll soon be getting a long and necessary break from our classes. Only a few more weeks!
I cannot wait…………..
Although I have two assignments due in Substance Abuse Treatment Centers- and a final exam in Nutrition to study for- I’m going to be deliciously irresponsible and download an adventure game and play ’til the sun comes up.
Tomorrow I have an appointment at the salon. I’ll be getting dimensional colouring and a slight cut. The hairdresser is a pro- she’s had her pic taken with several guys from the Bravo channel and she’s very hard to secure an appointment with so I’m pretty darn excited. It’ll cost an arm and a leg (as in- $200 ish/ballpark) but given that I’ve only been to a salon once in my life- I’m going to frikking pamper myself. I think it’s long overdue.
So I’m off to game!
[insert big, cheesy, HAPPY emoticon here]