Taking Back One’s Life
No doubt this post will be peppered with semi-cliche and trite diatribe (but maybe not).
I’ll spare the other party further humiliation (and anger) who I’m no longer with. Seven years is a long time to love somebody with your whole heart, especially if it’s a one-way street. Alas, at some point or another, I have to wake myself up and say, “Save yourself.”
So today is the second day of a new life for me.
I could look at this picture as if it were broken and shattered. But I choose to look at it like life is suddenly brand new, and full of possibilities!
Naive? Perhaps.
Hopeful? Definitely.
Broken? A bit.
But always forgiving and open to change.
I will always believe life is what you make it; not “what is thrown at you”.
In a weird way, I’m ecstatic. I’m sure there will be more tears. I’m not invincible.
But, I’m content, and still in love with life.
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m o n o c h r o m e j u n k i e † 
The last sentence, I love it! Life is love! ♥
March 18, 2013 at 11:34 pm
And love is life. Thanks, Joyce. xo Always good to see you.
March 19, 2013 at 1:03 am
I love how you mention that you’re sure there will be more tears. You are not invincible, but you are still in love with life. I have so often driven myself mad because I felt I had to be “positive” no matter what, and couldn’t allow myself to be human. What you wrote demonstrates a real and genuine positive outlook, and it inspires me to accept my own vulnerability (which I think I need to do).
Thinking of you and sending you lots of love.
March 19, 2013 at 6:49 am
Thanks for that, Lucky. 🙂 I was just telling (Muffins & Mocha) M&M, that I appreciate so much that she often blogs about painful, REAL, vulnerabilities and honesty. In college, job training, and general vocational and professional fields, we’re taught to always smile and put our best foot forward (as you know). That’s admirable and all, but I can’t relate to Bobbleheads who always smile- bluebirds flying around their halos! You know? It’s actually GOOD to see somebody ”having a moment” sometimes because it tells me that they’re real, like me. I can relate a lot more to that. But, on that note, just as I think vulnerability is an asset, so do I think jumping up and bouncing back (quickly) is as well- bluebirds and all. 😉 In other words, what I’m trying to say is, go ahead and have a meltdown. Me and M&M did, and look at us now.
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Haha….
Love you. And thanks, always. 😉
March 19, 2013 at 11:29 am
Beautiful picture!! And very strong message! I’m sorry to hear that you are going through some things. If you would like to talk/vent please email me muffinsandmocha@hotmail.com . Unsure if it has to do with relationship things but a little more than a year ago my fiance called off our engagement, I had to leave the state, moved into my friends bedroom, etc. I’ve def experienced some crap when it comes to relationships!! hang in there! Your extremely strong. Venting and expressing yourself through photography is such a brilliant idea!
March 19, 2013 at 11:00 am
M&M, thank you SO much for your healing words, and your encouragement. Also, thanks for sharing your own like experiences where breaking up with a loved one is concerned. (My two choices are a breakUP, or a breakDOWN, and…I’d rather go UP.) 😉 I appreciate that you’re so quick to share your vulnerabilities- always! That’s an asset and I respect you so much for that. These days, and especially online, I know we’re pressured to be “shiny and great 24/7” with sunshine flying out of our…noses, but I prefer REAL PEOPLE who don’t mind sharing their painful shadows as well as their endearing sunshine. So, thanks especially for that. And yes, photography IS my therapy. It heals me. Love ya, girl, and thanks for just being who you are. xo
March 19, 2013 at 11:21 am
Hopeful and open is a nice way to go through life, Hon. It works…sometimes…but it works. 🙂
March 20, 2013 at 8:37 am
And when that doesn’t work….(nevermind…heheh..) Hopeful and open! 😉
March 20, 2013 at 2:37 pm
When that doesn’t work, just remember…
There is NO problem too large that cannot be resolved through the proper application of high explosives. :-p
March 21, 2013 at 9:02 am
Hahaaa……
I’ll keep that in mind, brothuh. 😉
March 21, 2013 at 10:10 am