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Stress Level: Blowing Gaskets

Today has been an unusually stressful day. I’ve been working on my new art site, which I won’t reveal until it’s completely finished. It’s definitely in its embryonic stages. I have so much school work to catch up on and we’re financially strapped, as usual. Some of my photography art acquaintances have Donate to PayPal tabs up on their sites and many are actually receiving donations. I can’t bring myself to do that. I will work hard to sell my art work instead; that means pounding the virtual pavement and hobnobbing with the elite in the art world. Nothing to complain about, I assure you. But work is work, and I’m so limited on time these days. To put it simply, school is eating me up alive. Research, essays, and reports: my head feels like it’s in a pressure cooker, or an olive that is being slowly squeezed of its precious substances. The arachnoid cyst on my brain stem is acting up again and the pain is relentless and intense, but it doesn’t slow me down- it should.

It’s snowing outside- March snow. I should be taking a Psychology exam but I’m going to pop an Ambien and call it a night. It’s 1:00 a.m.

I just needed to write something.
I should cry.


4 responses

  1. Oh no…I can relate to feeling stressed and blowing gaskets, and I’ve never had to deal with an arachnoid cyst on top of it! I hope you are feeling better. I’ll be thinking of you today!

    March 6, 2013 at 2:53 pm

    • Can you believe I actually still have a raging migraine? It’s been two full days now- and I’m exhausted. There’s no comparison to the pain (It’s like- natural childbirth for 48-72 hours- but worse). Thanks for thinking of me though. That means a lot to me! xo

      March 7, 2013 at 9:12 am

  2. I’m sorry to hear about your week 😦 and how stressful it’s going. I will say that something that stresses many people out is “change”. Even if it’s positive change. Since your website is going up that is something that is about to be new in your life. I’m really looking forward to seeing it!!!! Your photography is so great! And you know I would not feel bad about putting a paypal thing up I mean I know where you are coming from but if you ask people to donate they do not feel obligated. If people have it, and they love your work, I’m sure they will! The worst that could happen is the paypal account would stay empty and you would not be worse off than you were before. ❤ I never like to ask for help but I'm learning that by doing so, I get a lot further. And also that people like to be involved, hands on, and help because it makes them feel good. 🙂 Hang in there girl!!

    March 6, 2013 at 7:21 pm

    • You raise some valid points about having a Paypal donate tab, but if I don’t have one, it will push me to try harder to sell my work as an artist/photograpger/”artographer”. Being poor is a good incentive for artists! (They don’t call us “starving artists” for nothing. haa.) I had a buyer from Uruguay last year who paid $735 for one of my pieces, so I know it can be done.) And darn it, I’m going to do it. Again, you’re right about positive change = stress too, but unfortunately, it’s interpersonal with siblings and after a while, that takes a physical toll on a person. Apart from that though, this migraine is kicking my butt. I was down all day yesterday and awoke to find that I still have it- it’s completely exhausting. (The brain cyst causes physiological stress to my body that I can do little about.) And you know how being a student piles it on! Speaking of which, I hope you’re doing well in school. 🙂 Thanks so much for popping by, M&M. You’re a gem. xo

      March 7, 2013 at 9:23 am


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